I started this diet yesterday and in my manic state have already decided to write a book. I know that people write blogs and they turn into books, right? (Note to editor:take this part out..it must look more organic)

Ok, so diet history. My 30th year of dieting I have landed on what just might be THE diet! THE answer to all my searching. I got a BA in Nutrition and have been doing "research" ever since. And not just in the nutrition part but I want to discover what God thinks of these weight struggles. What is the answer!

I have been obsessed with my weight on and off for these 30 years. I lost weight in high school (all girl catholic school) and actually had a nun ask me how I did it. (Sister Carlyn, very thin, with whiskers, but obviously obsessed with her weight as well.)
BOORING. I will skip the history. Suffice it to say, (suffice it to say? is that a saying, editor?)
I have had ups and downs and lately have struggled mostly with motivation.

MOTIVATION:
The key to behavior. Why do we do anything? I was finding that to be disciplined I had to focus on myself and be motivated by MY glory. This sucked. I am not made to focus on my glory, my body, or my wonderful healthful life-style.
I would every so often get sick of myself and repent of the self focus. But then overeating always seemed to follow, which leads to wt gain.
Last week a friend looked to be losing weight. Of course any religious dieter pounces on that. "How are you doing it?" I asked. She explained that she is using a method of cognitive therapy.
CT- this does not jibe with Biblical counseling does it? But how can I ignore the thinness that this friend had and just may be within my grasp so I got online and plunked down a bunch of money to get the stuff. Then I read up on it...no, no, no. This can not be the answer!?

I simultaneously am reading a great heart searching book called A QUEST FOR MORE, by Paul David Tripp. In the first half of the book my problem was summed up. I am living for MY kingdom..Not the Creator's.
quote: To live for yourself is to rob yourself of your own humanity. I was made to live for Jesus.

quote:You will never win the battle with yourself by saying"no" to yourself (like I was doing).
The battle only begins to be won when you say "yes" to the call of your King, the Lord Jesus Christ.

So my experiment is to use the CT materials but replace the self pep talks with the truth of why I do anything...for the King. So here I go...welcome to your death...(The name of the next Tripp chapter) to call me to death to self...death to my agenda.