I am patient!

One thing I can say that I have become with dieting is PATIENT. (I am practicing giving myself credit.)
But it is true over the 30 years I have struggled with my eating I have learned to be more gentle and patient about the process. Finally.
I mean I wasn't patient 5 years ago when I went on the unhealthy atkins diet and ate sunflower seeds and low carb chocolate compulsively. When that diet stopped working after losing 20 pounds I began to gain quickly and stopped at a 30 pound gain. That is when I adopted patience. Four years ago I joined weight watchers and 24 hour fitness and began slowly and usually patiently losing weight and getting in shape. I guess I took a few crazy detours like the the Eat - Clean phase I went through, explained at the beginning of this blog back in april. Knowing what my purpose is for losing weight has kept me on the journey. The goal is not to get thin. But hey, I realized this week while I was living my life and living it with purpose, that I am within 4 pounds of my healthy goal weight. And I feel perfectly ok with where I am. The thing that I'm getting tired of is paying weight watchers forever...even though it has been worth it to not quit and gain it back. So what I decide to do ii... I am looking into working FOR weightwatchers. Then I can recoup some of that money AND keep getting the encouragement to continue. ineed to know that its part of the purpose God has for me...and I'll do it.